We’re back but I’m really tired
Broiling heat
Many surgically enhanced bodies at the pool
Many more that should have been
All of the kids and not a few adults had a blast with geocache.com
Who knew that cactus grew in that area
Sandals and flip-flops not good footwear
Good, good family times - I have great sisters
Found out that a client from way back overdosed a couple weeks ago. I don’t remember grieving over someone’s loss this hard. Up all that night, walking around the lake in the dark. I wished purgatory was real. I loved that man. After three hours of walking I finally asked Jesus, "Please let G. be saved." I know it's too late but . . . He was so fragile. For me it’s always hardest with the ones I “know” will die early. I remember seeing him at a wedding about four years ago and my head filled with, “You’re still alive!?” His dad beat the ability to live right out of him. He soul was broken. His mind bent beyond straightening. Dear God that hurt. Every time I closed my eyes I could see his face sitting across from me in my office, his smile, his eyes, his awesome laugh. Had to push away a lot of lies: “If I played a role in his life I also played a role in his death.” Sometimes I hate counselling.
Refused to play Yatzee
Copious amounts of rain one night
Cabin stifling hot the other nights
Got stuck
Had a flat tire
Plugged up with a cold
Right now I’m sorry that we’re going again next week
We’re back but I’m really tired
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This sucks, on multiple levels...
ReplyDeleteThere's always a good side, next week will be better :)
Thanks Hugo. It's already better. The degree to which the grief of this man's death hit me took me by surprise. I've had two clients die while I was working with them and that's a nightmare in itself, but it's been almost a decade since I was seeing this man. Time has not diminished my love for him. Flat tires, fat bodies in bikinis and cactus are nothing in comparison
ReplyDeleteIt's great that you care so much about these people. And yes obviously, 'Flat tires, fat bodies in bikinis and cactus are nothing in comparison'... but again, very unlikely that you will get such bad news again next week!
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